When I started working on Chamber, I did not know I would be writing this post one day. I did not know that I would have this feeling. Chamber’s final release is in the works and I just can’t wait to finish it.
About 10 years ago, a man told me about a product I was building with him “I know you love it, like its your baby” and I just could not connect to that line. It’s been 10 years, I am a dad now and now for the first time, I am able to connect to that feeling.
I am building Chamber. There are so many things that I want to get done. I have a dozen useful things that I want to do with Chamber; in Chamber. I know they are possible. There is a design in my head but I have a task list to follow, the preliminary steps to perform before the dream becomes a reality.
The heart races in excitement, the mind spins into dozens of more ideas and what all could be done, some practical but difficult, some doable but useless and boring and even some that are downright fantasy. But there is that list to follow before which none of the exciting stuff can take shape.
10 years. The perfectionist in me is no longer as strict as he used to be. He has learnt the understanding of flexibility, of form and function and the importance of that duo over perfection. But I refuse to make total shitbox in the name of racing ahead of time and am taking a bit to craft it better.
Yet, the wait is killing. I wanna see more built into Chamber! It reminds me of the time when I was about to become a dad and I can feel that excitement again. Maybe it is because you have imagined the moments before you have lived them. You have prepared of all the games you wanna play. You know that the times ahead can be challenging yet rewarding. From cleaning shit to seeing the child walk, there will be a long journey, sleepness nights, sometimes downright enraging frustration and somewhere you look deep down and say “yes I want all of that and more”. Because it’s your baby!
And all of those feelings come back when you are working on something that you are truly excited about!
I just needed to express that. Anyways, back to work.